Thursday, March 26, 2015

{Immeasurably More}

About 10 years ago, I remember sitting in a living room, with a small group of young adult leaders. We were asked about what we thought or hoped our futures would be like. I remember responding, "I do not know what it looks like, I just have a feeling it is going to be bigger and more than I could ever even imagine for myself." 

Last week, I was talking with a college friend and she asked me if I ever imagined that this would be my life. It was an AHA moment for me. I was reminded of the event 10 years earlier and how those words really were true. 

God has done more than I could ever imagine.

I'm so thankful that my parents taught me to be a dream. I'm thankful that they modeled obedience to  God, that they taught me what it meant to be obedient to God, and that they gave their blessing for me me to follow God, no matter where it would take me.

Never in my wildest dream would I have thought I would move on my own to a new state, where I knew no one. I never thought I would then find a job that allowed me to travel back and forth to Haiti. I never would have thought that I would quit my job, raise support, and then live in Haiti. It all has been IMMEASURABLY MORE than I could ever have imagined. 

Since moving back from Haiti, we have frequently been asked the question, "What's Next?" or "What is your plan?" I usually reply with an answer about how I am teaching, Claudy is in school and someday we hope to live in Haiti again...

...but the real answer

...I don't know, I just know, that if we allow God to move and if we are obedient, it's going to be IMMEASURABLE MORE than we can imagine. 

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

A Broken and Contrite Heart

It's crazy to think we have been back living in the States for over a year and half now. So much in our lives has changed during that time. In many ways we have grown, but I still feel a struggle.

Some of my struggle has to do with being a new mom and all of a sudden not having time to be in the word, like my heart craves. I read a great blog about quiet times last week and it spoke to my soul. I suggest any new moms or moms of little ones reads it. I'm working on what it means to have time with the Lord, even when I don't have the time I desire.

One of my greatest struggles, is service. My heart is to serve others. So ofter in the word, we read about servanthood and doing for others. Our families desire is to be in Haiti. But the timing is not now. I know that, but it doesn't help my soul. I've struggled with connecting here in the US. Busyness has gotten control of me and to be honest, I've struggled figuring where I fit in. It's hard to turn off part of your heart. I know I need to live fully in this moment, where we are now and not wish it away. When we do finally move to Haiti, I'll be wishing I had moments back in the the states. I've struggled that I'm not serving.

I was reading the Lent Devotional on She Reads Truth this morning. The scripture that was used was from Psalm 51. Verse 17 spoke to me.

What he spoke to me, in this moment...I want you. I want your broken and contrite heart. That is the sacrifice (Ignore my spelling error above) I want. Today, my sacrifice isn't living in a different country, it's surrendering my broken heart to Him. Sometimes I focus too much on the service not the the person I am serving.

Today, I'm surrendering. Surrendering my heart, surrendering my desires. I'm living fully here, in my brokenness.

Friday, February 27, 2015

{Friday Favorites} - February 27

I've been's true. Especially on this whole blogging thing. I've been so tired in the evenings, and just haven't had the energy to muster up a blog post. I've been trying to be present in the evenings, not wanting our time as a family just to pass me by, but to enjoy it. 

1//Last weekend we went to watch my niece Dani play basketball. I love Dani and I love basketball....Clearly Abby and Troy, were not as easily entertained...they turned to making faces at each other. 

2//I've been trying to keep my camera near me...She gives the best smiles...her whole face lights up. I love this girl to pieces. 

3//We worked upstairs a couple of days this week and the cat came to visit us. It was her first time seeing the cat, I wish the picture had sound...she was squealing for like 5 minutes. 

4//Passport you know how hard it is to get a good passport picture for a moving baby. After about 40 pictures, this is the final take. Luckily I can crop it. She is actually standing up, it was the only way to make her not move :)

5//I registered for 2 half-marathons this summer. It's been a long time since I've done any longer races and I'm so excited :) 

Hope you have a great week!



Sunday, February 8, 2015

{Lia Marie - 6 Months}

Lia - 

Our first 6 months with you have flown by. You've changed my life in so many ways and made me see life in a different view. How you have no fears, only trust you will be taken care of and you love without hesitation. 

At 6 months you are very independent. You are fine playing on your own and you like to discover new things. I pray your independence continues - but that you know it is ok to depend on others and you need to learn to be dependent on Christ. 

You are a go - getter and are very busy. I know you get this from me. It's a great trait to have, if you don't let yourself get worn down. Remember that it is important to rest and to say no sometimes. BUT...keep aiming high! Work hard and never give up!

You are very determined. I love this about you. It's one of the traits that I love most about your him, you're not going to let others put you down or tell you that you can't do something. The skies are your limits! Reach for them!

You are very happy. You have unspeakable joy. You smile, laugh and giggle all the time. Keep smiling. You will brighten peoples day!

We love you baby girl!

Just a little late! But never late than never :) 

Thursday, February 5, 2015


I get asked often what I miss most about Haiti. The number one answer, is the people, our friends. Part of what makes that question so easy to answer and why the people, is the way of living in Haiti. Even though we were busy and there was always a lot to do, it felt that often time stood still...Our evenings weren't spent running from one activity to the next, but they were spent in the community playing soccer, walking, or hanging out on the porch with our friends. Haiti is very community based and you are always free to visit a neighbor, stop by, sit on their porch, talk, and visit. I miss people stopping by our house, I miss the neighborhood boys that would come and play, I miss all of those things. I miss time....

It's no question, getting time in the word was more difficult when we moved home from Haiti, but it has been extremely more difficult since having Lia. I've been told that I'm being to hard on myself. While that may be true, my soul craves that time that I've lost. My soul misses the oneness with my Savior. I know that at this point in time, I'm probably not going to be able to get in hour in during the mornings (until Lia starts sleeping through the night), but I know that some changes can be made. 

* Take the first 15-20 min of morning nap time (I very rarely have appointments scheduled at this time) 
* Listen to Christian music while working, instead of having the TV on. 
* In the evenings about 30 min before we go to bed, I love to lay in bed and watch Netflix, I've been feeling a very strong conviction that this time could be better used, so I'm now watching a sermon, or a part of a sermon each night before bed. 

Yes, time is hard to come by, by my priorities needed adjusted! 

I'd love to hear what you other moms with littles do to get time in the word in....