Friday, October 17, 2014

{Friday Favorites} - October 17

This has been our evenings this week. ROUGH!! Lia has decided she doesn't like naps or only needs 30 minutes at a time...So by 7pm, she is exhausted :)
Dad is doing school and helping with harvest some...that means little girl works late with mom!! Doesn't she look thrilled :) 
Lia is 3 months already! So hard to believe! 
Last weekend my mom and I took my niece and nephews to the park. It was a gorgeous evening and I found the perfect light to take pictures of our little girl!
No pictures for this one!! But STROLLER MOMMAS. I've been doing a fitness class at our local gym. It's a group of moms, with our kiddos in their strollers. My abs and legs got a killer workout today! Lovin' it!

Have a great weekend!


Tuesday, October 14, 2014


Genesis 29 is the story of two woman who share one man (the man was tricked y'all, but that's not the point of this story)...It's the story of Jacob, Leah and Rachel (definitely not why our daughter's name is Lia). You can read the story, but it portrays the story of these two that is never enough (Leah) and one that is too much (Rachel). 

I can relate to Leah. I've struggled with Leahism most of my adult life.  It's not because I wasn't told how valuable I am or how loved I am or that I didn't know that God created me in His image. I know these truths and I believe them. But, my Leahism is rooted, in my desire to please people. It leaves me feeling that no matter what I do, I'm never enough. 

I didn't realize how much this would play into my role as a mom. You see I'm a SAHWM (Stay At Home Working Mom) at the end of most days, I never feel that I've lived up to either one of those roles. I feel that no matter what I did, it was never enough. Either I feel like I let my daughter down, because she's been in a bumbo, bouncy chair, jumper or laying on the floor all day and I haven't hardly played with her or I feel like I hardly accomplished anything at work.

I need grace. 
Not from other people, but from myself.

 I need to allow myself to work, and be a mom and to realize that I'm good at my job and I'm a good mom and my daughter is well taken care of and is happy. I need to make a conscientious decision each day to give myself grace and to tell myself...


Wednesday, October 8, 2014

October Goals

Another month has passed. It's hard to believe that fall is in full swing and harvest is starting. 
I love fall! I love getting out my mittens, my scarves, great smelling candles, the changing of colors, and football! 

It's time again for Monthly Goals. Here is how I did in September.

September's Goals
1. Take at least 10 - 15 minutes every day to spend in the word (I know this isn't a lot of time and would love for it to be more). I did pretty good on this, but I missed a couple of days.
2. Exercise 30 minutes - 5 days a week. I'm learning that even though it seems selfish, I need this 30 minutes!
3. Get ready everyday (I know I work from home, but I think this is important). 
4. Go on at least one date night with my hubby without baby girl. date nights.
5. Social media free weekends. Failed again...I really did try, but couldn't stay away.
6. Read one fiction book and one non-fiction book Done, thanks to a work trip!
7. Blog at least 4 times (I would love to get to a couple of times a week, but we will start small). I'm not sure how I did this, but we did. 
October Goals
1. Bake - I love cooking with Pumpkin, so I'm hoping to bake some fall goodies. 
2. Date Night - We are going to try this one again. 
3. Take more pictures (With my good camera) - Y'all I feel like I am failing little girl, I've hardly taken pictures of the girl with our good camera
4. Make some videos to send my students. 
5. Read a book - It's on again, because it's good for my mind :)

More blogs coming soon...

Friday, September 19, 2014

{Friday Favorites} - September 19

It's been a long time since I've done Friday Favorites. I decided to try to bring it back. We'll see how it goes. It seems like we don't do much and All of my Friday Favorites may be about Lia, but that's a good thing right?

1. Her smile is contagious. She is starting to smile more and more purposefully now. The other night, she went to bed a little late, so I brought her into our room. She loves laying in our bed...and we don't mind it at all.

2. Little girl is so strong. If you have her laying in your lap or laying down in anyway, she tries to sit up. I decided to try to put her in the Bumbo Chair. She loved it and had that concentrated look on her face the whole time. She lasted about 10 minutes before she got tired.

3. Red Band Society - I am so excited fall shows are back (I've missed my favorites). I watched the pilot to this new one on Fox the other night. I'm hoping the rest of the episodes will be as good as the first! Can't wait. 

4. Fall is in the are here in Minnesota. I love fall scents..The Leaves candle from Bath and Body is my favorite. It's been burning in our house for the last couple of weeks.

5. I had my first fall coffee drink, the other day...No it wasn't a PSL...but a Salted Caramel Mocha....Love it!

Have a great week all!

Thursday, September 18, 2014

He Only....

I had every intention of following Blog-tember this month...and then life happened. 
I don't know what I was thinking...blogging everyday, working, hubby in school, newborn...haha I had high expectations for myself. 

This season of life has been different than any other. I now have a new role...Mommy

While, I love change and I adore and love my daughter, it is a role that has been the hardest one I've experienced. It's hard adjusting to the fact that 24 hours a day some one is dependent on me. I've always prided myself to be an independent woman. It's how I was raised. Then I got married and I had to learn to be co-dependent. Now, being a mommy, I have someone that needs me all day...'s exhausting's challenging's scary's hard's amazing's wonderfully difficult

There are days when I just want to be alone. I want to not have to think about all of the possibilities, the needs, the responsibilies...but at the same time, when I have a rare moment alone, those are all I think about.

I've never thought of myself to be fearful, but so much of her life is out of my control and it scares me. There are so many decisions that I have to make for her and a lot of them are in the gray area. Do we have the room at the right temperature, can we sleep her on her stomach, do we let her cry for a while in her bed, how long is too long, the questions go on and on...

I was reflecting this morning during my quiet time (with little one on my lap) on Psalms 62, verses 6-8.

For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence,
    for my hope is from him. 

He only is my rock and my salvation,
    my fortress; I shall not be shaken. 

 On God rests my salvation and my glory;
    my mighty rock, my refuge is God.

Trust in him at all times, O people;
    pour out your heart before him;
    God is a refuge for us.

It's a piece of scripture that has gotten me through many trials (it's why it's tattooed on my foot).  He is my REFUGE...He is my ROCK...I can not be shaken.

I have so many hopes and dreams for Lia. So many of them are out of my control. Each day I have to lay her down just like I lay down myself at the feet of Jesus.

This song has been very comforting to me this week. Let Jesus be your CORNERSTONE - your foundation.

Friday, September 5, 2014

{Blog-tember} - I'm Passionate About...

I'm passionate about...

...Always saying yes to God
...My marriage
...Living life to the fullest
...Being positive
...Seeing others succeed
...Living a disciplined life
...Quality time with people
...Watching the sunset
...Being around a dinner table with others

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Wednesday, September 3, 2014

{Blog-tember} - When I grow up

When I was graduating college, I told myself, that I never wanted to say I wish I would have....I wanted to live a full life and always say "yes" to where I felt I was being called. As I reflect on today's prompt, it was hard for me to answer, because I've felt I've done what I've wanted to do.

Upon graduating college, I moved to Florida and started teaching at a Christian School. I had many opportunities there and was able to coach and build lasting relationships. However, 4 years later God laid missions on my heart, specifically the country of Haiti. I went on a trip and I knew that I needed to follow his leading, so I pursued a job opportunity with FLVS (Florida Virtual School). Because I was teaching online, I had the flexibility of traveling back and forth to Haiti every other month and I was able to start training teachers.

After two years, I knew I was being called to do I moved to Haiti. During my time in Haiti, I was able to develop strong relationships, I mentored teenage girls, I worked with mission groups to help build relationships and provide sustainability, I mentored interns, I trained teachers, and I fell in love and got married. Then we got called back to the US.

Now, I am working for Florida Virtual School again, and we had our first child, Lia Marie.

I've lived a full life.....I've done a lot. If I had to answer "When I grow up..." I would say that I would love to train teachers and develop curriculum. I love to learn and I love seeing others learn. But, that's maybe someday...right now, I'm happy where I am.

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